This evening I have spent a lot time on reading blogs about people that have received Cochlear Implants. I have also seen a range of videos on Youtube about this subject.
I find it very touching to read about other peoples experiences and watch videoclips from their first experiences of CI on Youtube. I almost felt like a magnet because I really wanted to know what it means to receive a CI. In my case it has been almost impossible to get through this process without shedding tears. When you are considering if you should get CI you cannot avoid mirroring yourself into the experiences that other people have been through. It is therefore impossible to avoid getting in touch with your deepest emotions. You also start thinking about how powerful an emotions it must be suddenly to be able to hear things that you have never heard before.
I am probably on the edge between whether or not it would be a good idea for me to receive a CI surgery. But when I relate to the experiences that other people have had when receiving a CI I cannot avoid thinking how cool it must be suddenly to be able to hear in all the situations where I experience problems. Damn it would be nice if I could reduce the use of the word “what” or “beg your pardon” and be able to take part in the casual talk that I experience in many situations.